MY VERY FIRST JOURNAL I JOIN THIS WEB SITE TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK FREELY ON HOW I FEEL. MY DAUGHTER ALSO BELONGS AS WELL .

DEAR DAUGHTER

i WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW PROUD I AM OF YOU AND TO LET EVERY ONE ELSE KNOW THIS AS WELLTHIS IS TRUE. YOU ARE A GIVING CARING PERSON WITH A HEART OF GOLD AND YOUR JOURNEY THOUGH LIFE HAS NOT BEEN FAIR TO YOU AT ALL. PEOPLE HAVE TAKEN BIT BY PIECE TWISTED TO SUIT THEIR VERY NEEDS. YOU ARE THE SUN THAT SHINES IN ME. WITH OUT YOU I WOULD BE LOST IN THIS WORLD AND HARD TO FIND. YOU HAVE GIVEN SO MUCH HOPE THAT SOME ONE OUT THEIR REALLY CARES ABOUT LIFES GIFTS NEVER TAKE FOR GRANTED NOT EVEN ONE BREATH. YOU  ARE THE GIFT THAT I HAD RECIEVED FROM GOD SO MANY YEARS AGO YOU LIFT MY SPIRTS DON"T YOU KNOW. WHEN I WANTED TO GIVE UP ON ME YOU GAVE MY LIFE TO SEE MY WAY THROUGH. I COULD NOT PICTURE ONE SECOND OF THE DAY WHAT I WOULD DO WITH OUT YOU. YOU ARE MY HERO SEE YOU IN ME I LOOK AT A MINOR AND WHO DO I SEE. I SEE A DAUGHTER  THAT OFFERS SO MUCH AND  NEVER ONCE HAS ASK FOR ANY THING IN RETURN. YOUR LOVE AND DEVOTION YOUR PASSION OF  HEART MAKES ME PROUD TO BE THAT MIRROR. I UNDERSTAND HOW ONE MIGHT FEEL FOR I TO AM A LOST SOULED THAT FEELS LIKE A FOOL. BEATEN AND RAPED AND TAKEN FOR GRANTED I OFTEN WONDER WHAT IS THE MATTER I HAVE SCREAM AND WANTED TO ESCAPE BUT NO ONE KNEW EXCEPT ME. THAT I JUST WANTED TO DIE.DID NOT SEEM ANY ONE WAS THEIR I AM LOST WITH IN MY SELF I ALWAYS ASK WHAT HAVE I DONE TO HURT SO MUCH WHAT DID I DO TO DESEVER ALL THAT HAS HAPPEN. I TRY TO LIVE A LIFE OF CARE WOUNDERING IF ANY ONE IS THEIR. SO SEE YOU ARE NOT ALONE I KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO DO GO ESCAPE SO NO ONE HAS A CLUE. I RUN AND HIDE OF FEAR BECAUSE I FEEL SOMETIMES THEY HAVE NO FEELINGS AT ALL I WAS SOMEONE THAT THEY JUST TORN APART WHO CARES I DO.