Sad

I don't know what is wrong with me today. I feel so down and alone all of a sudden. I wonder is it is because DH has been working late nights. He is self employed, so he works extra late now that its summertime and the daylight is longer.  I am on BC again and I think its making me depressed. Oh man, I hate feeling like this. Sometimes I feel like this is never going to happen. How much more can I take this? I feel like I dont even want to try anymore and I hate that. It feels like a never ending cycle. I never thought I could handle so many BFNs mentally, physically, or emotionally. I am just afraid it is all running out. And I dont want to feel like that. I know I have to have hope, but where is the light? And lets not even bring up my tummy. All these stupid shots make me so bloated!!!! I look prego and I am not. Its just so sad. Why does our body do this to us?  Hope all is well with you ladies. Love ya!