BFN!

Well here it is again, BFN!!!!! I dont know how much more I can take of this. Its been 5 failed IUIs, 3 with clomid and 2 with injectables. I have 1 more with injectables before I can go to IVF. I am beginning to think, will it EVER happen?  What if I go thru IVF and that doesnt even work. What will I do then. Its so weird this time around, its like I have no emotion left. I am just here. I am so afraid that when it does/if it ever does happen, that I wont even be excited because I willl have no emotion left. Does that even make sense? I am just going thru the motions of left. I feel so bad for DH, I am never in the mood anymore. I am like, whats the point. God bless his soul, because I dont know how he puts up with me. He doesnt let me see how upset he gets with these BFNs. He trully is my rock. Without him, I dont know what I would do. That makes me feel better actually. I shouldnt take advantage of that. I trully am lucky. So now here I am, waiting for AF again!!!! Damn AF...lol. My motto is keep on trucking. That is all I can say. God really does have a plan for me. I see the light at the end of the tunnel, I just cant wait to get there!!!! Thank you always listening and for your thoughts & prayers. Tons of hugs & kisses. Sandy