I'm not in a good place.  I'm so friggin' irritable and easily frustrated.  The anxiety attacks are one on top of the other.  I want to run away, I want to sleep, I want to be alone, I want someone to talk to, I want someone to actually understand. I'm babysitting my nephew, and I don't have a car seat, plus he's napping.  I can't go anywhere...besides if I left, I'd probably immediately start to binge eat.  I feel like I need to go to a "safe place".  Just somewhere that I can sit around and do nothing or just journal or whatever.  I need to get away from the staleness of every day.  I need to figure out a plan, a routine, something to keep me out of this vicious cycle. I need to take some xanax...but I really can't take it while I'm watching an infant.  So the anxiety will keep on coming until my Mother comes home to relieve me....then I can deal with hearing my own 2 kids fighting non-stop until bedtime. Blah!

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Oh girl. Take a deep breath. I so know what you mean. Lately I have been so stressed over nothing. I just feel like I\'m freaking out! I like don\'t want to deal with this world? I don\'t know if that is the same as how feel or not but, I hope you know your not alone! And we can suffer with each other, right by our sides, saying here are some hugs! They would be real if I could! You can get through it girl, I know we can!