I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE..... I WANT SO BAD RIGHT NOW TO KILL MYSELF SO BAD RIGHT NOW..... I KEEP GETTING FLASHBACKS OF THE RAPES, THE ABUSE I SUFFERED FROM THE AGE OF 3 UNTIL I RAN AWAY, THE ABUSE I SUFFERED IN RELATIONSHIPS. I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.... I AM GOING TO END IT ALL RIGHT NOW..... I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE...... NOBODY CARES... NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME....... SO WHY SHOULD I CARE?