I AM DONE WITH EVERYTHING. I AM HAVING A VERY STRESSFUL DAY AND IT HAS ONLY GOTTEN WORSE SINCE MY ASS OF A BROTHER GOT HOME FROM WORK. HE THREATENED TO KILL ME AND I TOLD HIM TO JUST DO IT AND NOT SAY IT AND TO PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY. MY LIFE SUCKS AND I NO LONGER WANT TO BE HERE AT HOME. I TEXTED A FRIEND OF MINE AND TOLD HER THAT I WAS LEAVING THE STATE AND POSSIBLY THE COUNTRY. I DON'T KNOW WHERE I WOULD GO BUT I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE. I SAW MY COUNSELOR TODAY AND SHE REALLY DIDN'T HELP MUCH. BUT I TOLD MY FRIEND THAT I WAS LEAVING EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE BEHIND. I AM GETTING SICK AND TIRED OF HELPING PEOPLE AND THEN GETTING TREATED LIKE I AM A PIECE OF TRASH. BUT HOW CAN I FORGET THAT IS FUCKING NORMAL HERE. I WISH IT WOULD ALL JUST END AND NEVER COME BACK TO ME. I AM MISERABLE AS HELL LIVING HERE. I HAVE TO MANY MENTAL AND PHYSICAL ISSUES AND CANNOT MOVE FROM MY MOMS HOUSE SO I'M JUST GOING TO RUN AWAY. I MIGHT BE 20 YEARS OLD BUT I CAN STILL DO IT AND I AM NOT AFRAID TO EITHER. I DONE IT BEFORE. THE FIRST TIME I RAN AWAY I WAS GONE FOR A YEAR. GOT WITH THE WRONG GUY GOT PREGNANT, HAD A BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL AND I ABANDONED HER AT A CHURCH. I WAS 14 YEARS OLD. I WAS HEAVILY INTO DRUGS, CONSTANTLY DRINKING, I WAS DOING DRUGS WHILE I WAS PREGNANT. THEN I GOT SICK AND TIRED OF RUNNING FROM MY PROBLEMS AND WENT BACK HOME. SPENT ALOT OF TIME IN THE DETENTION CENTER AND STRAIGHT TO REHAB FOR 8 MONTHS. SOBERED UP (NOT REALLY BUT AS FAR AS THEY KNEW I WAS CLEAN AND DOING EVERYTHING THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO) UNTIL I GOT OFF OF PROBATION AND IT ALL STARTED AGAIN. BUT NOW THAT I AM AN ADULT I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT SPENDING TIME IN THE DETENTION CENTER OR BEING PUT ON PROBATION. I AM NOT A CHILD ANYMORE AND NOBODY UNDERSTANDS THAT. SCREW IT ALL. I AM DONE WITH EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY, I AM SORRY TO SAY IT AND ALL BUT THAT DOES INCLUDE MY FIANCE.