I don't understand why you can be so happy one minute and so depressed the next. mI mean so depressed that you don't want to live. I am never suicidal but I do feel as though I don't want to be here. Between the pain and all the other crap that Lymes bring on I am jst st my end.    Family and freinds "pray" for you but when you really want to talk or need something they are quick to move on to another subject. I am so tired of feeling alone. Thank God for my deer sweet pets. They are my sanity and my peace. My 2 little chiuahauias and my big old mutt and can't forget my kitty who drives me bonkers.     I am so tired of feeling sad. I understand the doc. not wanting to put me on med for that but the herbs are so expensive too. At least with ins. my meds are only 5 for generic. OH well. I guess I will keep relying on God to pull me through but I am even becoming sceptical of him sometimes and that really scares me.      Guess I will go and wallow in my loliness some more. No matter what I try nothing works , so why try anything right?