Wow, we did alot of cleaning today. My house is one big clutter mess. Since all of us have Lymes it just gets put everywhere.Today we put away some christmas stuff. I used to be very neat when i wasn't sick. Then when I got sick and in that fog everything just piled up. My loving husband tried but it was to much for him to go to work and work 12 hours then come home and cool diner. We had a cleaning lady come in on Fridays and noe that I am not working I can see where things were never done that was suppose to be done. So I am praying that while I am on this spiritual journey to regain our health that i too can gain back the order on the house. I can't do it alone at first. My husband helped today and we got alot done. The bad thing is I am already hurting so I know that I am going to regrte it in the morning. I probaly will be so so sore and stiff. I am proud of what we accomplished!! Even though I had a bad anger attack. I had to stop and go see my dad at the cemetary so I could focus. I needed to talk to him. I miss him so much. It has been 10 years and I miss just as much now as I did then. I am determined to get my faith strong again. The devil is not got me anymore.
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Sunday Jan.20,2008
Wow, I have been down eversince the last one. I really need to take it easy. I thank the Lord for all you have shown me since being off work and trusting you. Alot is happening in every area of my life. Since quititng work I have realized alot.
I have been putting everything off nad praying but my heart not being in it. Now that I have opened up my wholse self to God I can see his truth again. I feel his presence and I don\'t want to loose it. I remeber trusting him before.This is the life I have and I have a chance to change it or continue on and lose everything. I feel healing. Weather that means that I get total restoration or even if it is Managing everything. I know it is the hands of the Lord.
I also learned we all need to recoinnect emotionly.We have all been closed off from feelings. Shown me that I need to eat right and exersice wich is next to impossible. But my muscles are so tight. My teeth hurt in the morning after I do a good stretching. I can feel how tight they are and that is sobad. I need to learn to relax them and trust the Lord so I can have peace in my life. Well gonna go for now, my fingers are getting tired.