wow, It has been a long time since I wrote anything on this. I have been in fog again. I am determined this year to get better. I am so tired of being sick and down and my family suffering too. They both have it and it is only getting worse for them too so if we all do it together it might be easier. I know that it is the only way that I will get better. I can't do it on my own. The doctors are prescribing me more nad more pills. It is damaging my body more I think.

         It is time to really give my life over to Christ and stop fighting him. It is really been in my spirit to get back on track with him. I need him in our lives first runner up. I will not go down fighting. I was never one to back down from a challenge or fight but for some reason I have let the devil run all over me. I am not going to take it anymore. I miss having friends. I miss being close to my family. It is no one but him who has seek ans tried to destroy what i have. I watch him doing it to my family and it stops here. I am breaking the curse of Lymes. So many people in my family have it. All through the generations.

         I with the help of Jesus can and will be restored again. I will learn to cast my cares upon him for he cares for me. I know it will not be easy. I know there are mountains ahead of me but if I don't he will win and I can't have that. I will not give my life over to him to take. I will not let this kill me like it has my dad and other family members. You will not convince me other wise that it killed my dad and is doing the same thing to me and my sister nad brother and other family members.  I love you Lord and I need yo big time. Lead me and I will follow you.