Well feel so alone , feel like I am always the one keeping things together and going but on the inside like im ready to crash , life is so hard, so so hard, computer at work crashed , doesnt look like it will be fixed anytime soon cell phone died what else right , life thats all everyday something new that goes wrong, kids meltdowns and somehow they look to me for the answer but i dont have it, husbands sadness dont know how to "fix" that the guilt that i still carry , I dont know nothing is fun anymore nothing is really satisfying feel like im just feeling sorry for myself guess i am miss my daughter so much nothing makes it better no one to really talk to without either making them cry or want to run away oh well such is life not much fun this life ..not at all.............
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You need to come here more...because you are not alone. Every mom here knows how hard life is...and we want you to talk about Ashley...tell us things...I was looking at your pictures and I can see what a beautiful girl she is. A smile in every picture...a kindness in her eyes. I bet she learned that from her mom. You know it has been 3 1/2 years for Alex and it is still hard for me too. Some days are better than others...but life is full of distractions. Find something deep inside that you like doing and allow yourself to do it! Take care and know that we are holding your hand...Karen
Just catching up on your journals. It\'s good to hear from you. Life is a continual series of events and some are definitely more difficult and I\'m sorry that you and your family struggle. I too wish we could turn back time. Oh wouldn\'t that be nice to have things as they once were. I know I\'m definitely a different person as each of my family member. We just have to be a better person if that makes sense. We owe our children to find a way to continue to be strong and make the best. Sending you prayers for continued strength and lots of love and support from us moms here. Robin.