well finally Penndot is doing something to our road only after so many deaths...a lot of people complaining oh it will tie traffic road rage who are they kidding there is already road rage.....anyway it is something...... well I have tried counseling, didnt help me much, not when he tells me oh I have been told losing your child is the worst..no sh__! but compassionate friends have been wonderful..they know exactly how I feel and always are there even if to just listen...I expect the pain will lesson but I dont ever think I will be filled with Joy , I don think that could ever happen there will always be the what ifs and I wonder whats....well  thats life.... Hope all has a good and peacful memorial weekend!!!!!HUGS