March 7 my husbands birthday, a hard day for him cause Ashley would always do something special and always make her famous choc cake for her dad...yesterday I was having a tough day , Theresa's counselor at school called nothing serious just anted to ask about a field trip...Theresa was helping me do dishes the night before and asked me for 30 for a zoo trip I said ok but as soon as I said ok she changed her mind and said she didnt want to go, I left the check and told her to take it...well she told the counselor that she didnt want to take the money from me and didnt really want to go , now I know she wanted to go or she wouldnt have asked me..well the counselor went on to say what a good kid she is and wanted to get her a ticket to go pls let them do that for her, I explained that I had given her the money but she said she probably just said she didnt want to go so she wouldnt have to take my money...I explained to her that a week or so ago I said to my kids dont ask for anything cause I was broke, I just had Kaitlyns 16th birthday that cost a few hundred for food and stuff had to give her money for her class trip to VA which was 300 and didnt expect the propane bill I got another 600  but I told her we arent in any way losing anything ..well she wanted to do that for Theresa, so I got off the phne and cried , she reminds me so much of Ashley always worrying about me and trying to help , she even put money in my wallet I assumed it was my husband but found out it was her....she has been cleaning the house and doing the laundry I dont know what I would do without her...well as I was crying I was on my email at work and I had just deleted an email that I had and was waiting for it to go back to the list, an email automatically opened, one from 11/2/2006 the night before Ashleys accident, I saved 2 emails from her asking me to print out her ticket at work for her SAT testing she was supposed to go to the sat after her accident, well so here it was Hi Mom   and all I could read was I love you mom Love Ashley, how did that open by itself??????