Another week gone bymade it thru Kaitlyn's 16th birthday, I wasnt sure how it was going to be, another event her big sister wont see, I have been feeling so depressed lately so down I try to find the good in each day but it has become so hard the pain seems to take over.. I said I hated my life then my 12 yr old Theresa said well im  a part of your life and I felt terrible.. it all is so unfair, so many emotions to deal with....keep trying to replay this whole thing in my mind maybe by some chance it will change?? but when I open my eyes ,it didnt....we got the call from our lawyer, the other driver was put at fault by his insurance ,should I feel better? it doesnt bring her back I think I just get more angry at him, he didnt even say anything he took a life and never bothered about saying im sorry nothing......well just feel so numb anymore..just wishing my life away.......