yes holidays over....tree gone decorations down....next yr going away....have to try something different something to help keep my pain from being too overwhelming....I dread another yr of this..the 2nd yr that my daughter didnt exist in how sad....life really stinks, wish I could have the old one back but tried, begged,pleaded, tried to sell my soul but nothing..so I guess Im stuck in this new one have to try and make the most of it , even if it hurts so incredibly much...all I wanted was my kids safe and sound is that too much to ask?
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I always wished for my children to be safe and sound.Never would go to bed until all was home and in bed.It hurts so bad but remember they are always in our hearts and thoughts I would do anything to have my justin back but isn\'t going to happen.Take baby steps try something new do you keep a journal?I don\'t probably should.All I know all our life\'s are different we all hurt.And we will never forget.I will go to my grave with Justin in my heart.I have noticed if I get out of my house I feel better.when justin died i wouldn\'t go anywhere but I have slowly taken baby steps to go out in the world it does help some.They say find a hobby I don;t work i\'m a stay at home mom even tho my youngest is in six grade.I used to love to read I haven\'t tried do that don\'t think I could focus.I love Justin so much and miss him terribly but I\'m kinda in the accepting stage or what ever that means I have accepted Justin\'s death it doesn\'t make life any easier I now know that he is gone and it isn\'t a dream it is real I can\'t do anything about it but keep my memories of Justin in my heart he knows i hurt we were so close he was my light.I just hope one day I can stand tall and talk about Justin\'s life without crying a river.I will be thinking of you.baby steps love,hugs.jfm24,vicki
We all hope to have our loved one back no matter what. It breaks my heart whenever I realise that Luchan won\'t be back ( tears come to my eyes and my heart starts to ache). We can only take one day a time. Let us hold hands to go through this tough time together. Love Robyn