Ok I did make it thru the day w/out crying,I was supposed to go to a therapist,cancelled anyway went to a talk on heart disease at our highschool, my Uncles wife works for the dr so I said I would go,well I went out to the hallway and sorry but I lost it there are a lot of memories in that school, alot of walking in those halls, remembering her practices ans her classes, I just felt overwhelmed all I could think was I miss her so bad I want her back! Im so lost w/out her.It hurts so damn bad!well going to finish my glass of wine and read and try to sleep, maybe an hour or two..try again tomorrow....

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About two weeks ago, Jake\'s school had asked us to come to a memorial they were doing for Jake. So we went, little did I know, it was so we could speak to the students. No one told us that. Yes, the principal spoke, and there was an interpretive dancer but then both my ex-husband and I were to speak to the class. I guess it was to show them how well we were doing. But it was extremely hard. All his friends, his school all to overwhelming. So I completely understand. But there are also good memories and that\'s what we need to focus on. All the good. Lots of hugs, Kathy