Well today really dragged out! when you really dont want to be somewhere it always seems to be longer, anyway feeling down wish I knew just how to go on what is the secret? How do you move these horrible empty ,lonely feelings from your mind?How do you go on and pretend your ok and go on with your daily routines? wish I had an answer. lately I feel so depressed I guess because I see all the teens going out and getting ready for the prom and graduation,I wante so badly to see Ashley walk up to that podium and receive her diploma,I was so proud of her! Damn it hurts so bad! mt heart has been ripped out and stomped on.Why did this have to happen yknow I seem to ask the same things over and over wish I could register in my mind there are NO answers!! I guess one day it will compute just not today..
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I keep asking myself why I let him go that day. There are no answers to our questions. Someday when we join them we can ask. Until then, there is no right or wrong. Monday nite I turned it all over to God because I couldn\'t take anymore. I must tell you that the past two days have been a bit easier. That doesn\'t mean I don\'t cry because I miss him so. They just somehow have been a little easier. Lots of hugs, Kathy
khillman9 we also wish one of us would have went with Branden for his last minute shopping, he was always over careful when gram was with him but I drove my own car to the same place he was going and purchased goodies for our get together. Neither of us knew the other was going.
He had already had his accident before I arrived at the store.
We wanted to see him marry and love his babies.
ashelysmom, somehow time helps. Getting through that time is the terrible part. Hang on and we all will experience gradual easing of the horror we live in.
I think of the Jews and how they watched their loved ones taken off in another direction; then to understand what in some cases had happened to all there small children, sick parents and others. How could they live through that?