Well Its Tues and I had a really hard day, I cried a lot today, I miss Ashley so much! my day started out w/a arguement w/my 15 yr old,then it just got worse, I cried for just about my entire commute into work (1hr) then I was off and on all day. I stopped at Ashley's grave I brought her some roses and I tried to clean up the ice a little around some of the things w/brought there, I was balling my eyes out ! I just keep trying to convince myself she really cant be dead but then there it is that damn grave! I hurt so bad I wish I knew she was alright I just dont know what to believe, I havent gotten any type of signs nothing ,I cant believe this is how my life has turned out...
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hi sweetie
i know how you feel. i want to convince myself that my ashley is not dead either. i think if i pray hard enough maybe god will perform a miracle and bring her back to me. I have had many signs that my baby is in heaven though and they continue on. too many to be coincidence. I think your ashley is in heaven too. i will pray for her to come to you in a dream or for a sign to come to you and you will know when you see a sign. I cant believe this happened to me either. I never ever thought anything like this would ever happen. Its our worst nightmare. I am so sorry I wish i could turn back time and bring our ashleys back. I know they are in a very warm place full of love and no pain. we will see them again some day too. love never dies so we will have them as long as we love them. keep in touch
alissa
Hello,
I have the same feelings, I want to see Branden, Hug, Touch and Talk.
It\'s like I have two minds one says it can\'t be and the other calls me a fool.
I keep trying to tell myself he is in a better place and I know it is true.
But in my human state I just want him!
Lets keep writing and help each other the best we can.
Love you both, Phyllis