haven't been doing well for a while now. i really wish i wouldn't wake up anymore. i want do die but don't have the courage to do it myself. i hear tragic news stories of random murders and shootings and finding myself wishing i was in one of the victim's place instead. they have more to live for than i do - many having children - i want to sacrifice myself to save them, and in return i would be saving myself from having to deal with this ongoing pain. i know good days come and i appreciate them when i do, but they really do not make up for the constant despair and confusion i feel most of the time. i want to die and give up.

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mystie
mystie

I feel your pain!
I am in the same place.
HUGSSSSSSSS
JOYHOLY
JOYHOLY

I HOPE YOU ARE BETTER,WISHING TO DIE IS A TERRIBLE THING,I WAS IN SUCH SITUATION ,I REALISE THAT THERE IS MORE THAN WHAT I WAS SEEING,FIND THE TRUTH,AND YOU WILL APPRECIATE HOW PRECIOUS YOU ARE,LOVE LUCY..