Lately

Lately, I have started to notice how much more broken I have become.
I have isolated myself away from the world, fearing that I would appear misplaced. And this would result in self doubt, pity, insecurity, guilt and the feeling of being lost without the freedom.
I have tried many times to write down and describe my emotions but have often found it difficult.
My expressions (a lot of the times) may come across misunderstood, and not making sense. 
I have been denying my feelings and emotions for quite some time and it's very hard for me to explain what those feelings and emotions are or what they are caused by.
All I know is that I have a void.