General update
I was thinking about deactivating my account..... But then I wouldn't know what to do without this site. So I'm not deactivating it after all.
So after my mom picked me up today, she asked if I had asked for any volunteering and she started exploding on me on how I'm almost 20 and I still have to have others "babysit" me. And that is the truth. It's fucking embarrassing! I'm an embarrassment!
She started saying "ur like an old lady" well no fucking duh!! I am living my life like a fucking old lady!!! I don't go out with friends or have a boyfriend or any of that shit!! All I do is just go to my parents friends house and sit with a whole bunch of old people!! Yeah I'm like a fucking old lady!
I got home and was really upset. I went in my room and cried and my brother got frustrated. He told me to forget about what my mom said. I'd be better without that bitch!
I really wanna go back to binging and purging. And lose 20 lbs. I wanna go to the hospital. I don't care anymore. Everybody hates me. My family hates me. other people just want me to go away whenever I get near them cos of my fucking attitude.
So after my mom picked me up today, she asked if I had asked for any volunteering and she started exploding on me on how I'm almost 20 and I still have to have others "babysit" me. And that is the truth. It's fucking embarrassing! I'm an embarrassment!
She started saying "ur like an old lady" well no fucking duh!! I am living my life like a fucking old lady!!! I don't go out with friends or have a boyfriend or any of that shit!! All I do is just go to my parents friends house and sit with a whole bunch of old people!! Yeah I'm like a fucking old lady!
I got home and was really upset. I went in my room and cried and my brother got frustrated. He told me to forget about what my mom said. I'd be better without that bitch!
I really wanna go back to binging and purging. And lose 20 lbs. I wanna go to the hospital. I don't care anymore. Everybody hates me. My family hates me. other people just want me to go away whenever I get near them cos of my fucking attitude.
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I\'m glad you\'ve decided to stay. I\'m pretty sure everybody hates me too, but that\'s just the way it is for me.
Thanks Tyler :) I\'m feeling a bit better
Venting and sharing does do some good, don\'t hold emotions in all the time, she really should know how this makes you feel, wishing you a great Friday and glad you stayed
I\'m really glad you\'re not deleting your account. I\'m sorry that that happened. I hope you feel better.
Thanks :) and this site does help me a lot. And sadly, I don\'t think my mom knows how I feel....
(((Kathy)))
What would u like to say? Desigol1979
You know I think the good part about this sight is you can talk about your problems and be as negative as you want to be and it\'s practically encouraged that you do so haha. If I post something lets say on facebook, holy shit...I\'ll be ambushed with a bunch of messages asking if I\'m okay and people will just judge and think you\'re crazy haha. They\'ll be all talk of it and it\'s just an uncomfortable situation. I think it gets blown out of proportion when you post something depressing on a website like that. But sometimes it\'s just necessary to find a place like here to be welcomed to vent out your frustrations. I think this place is healthy in small dosages. Sometimes being obsessed with this place might just leave you more depressed because it\'s sadness and talking about problems 24/7. So yeah, keeping an account here...will still probably help you in the long run in the big scheme of things as long as you don\'t stay on too much, and I doubt you do so it\'s all good.
Yeah like I posted about my eating disorder on Facebook & this girl I know she tweeted me n said how I\'m doing with my eating disorder... And I\'m like SHIT now idk how many ppl.... But now they all know my deepest and darkest secret.