Sat here and been playing the same piece of music over and over, with tears streaming because this just sums up me at the moment.  Whitney Houston - One Moment in Time.  Mum is in the garden and I feel so far away from her because I can't tell her what I'm feeling, what is wrong, how I long to be someone else.  How I only want to be happy, to have a life, to be free from this state I'm in.  For those of you that don't know the song here is a video and the lyricshttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8EbYmMb4lR4Each day I live I want to be a day to give the best of me I'm only one, but not alone My finest day is yet unknown I broke my heart for every gain To taste the sweet, I faced the pain I rise and fall, Yet through it all this much remains I want one moment in time When I'm more than I thought I could be When all of my dreams Are a heart beat away And the answers are all up to me Give me one moment in time When I'm racing with destiny Then in that one moment of time I will feel, I will feel eternity I've lived to be the very best I want it all, no time for less I've laid the plans Now lay the chance here in my hands Give me one moment in time When I'm more than I thought I could be When all of my dreams Are a heart beat away And the answers are all up to me Give me one moment in time When I'm racing with destiny Then in that one moment of time I will feel, I will feel eternity You're a winner for a lifetime If you seize that one moment in time Make it shine Give me one moment in time When I'm more than I thought I could be When all of my dreams Are a heart beat away And the answers are all up to me Give me one moment in time When I'm racing with destiny Then in that one moment of time I will be, I will be, I will be free, I will be, I will be free