Well thats another over and done with.  One both me and Mum didn't enjoy but we muddled through as we always do.    Broke down when I woke up, whilst watching tv something about dads in a film, then when mum went to see sis and drop of the pressies , again whilst cooking dinner and now that mum has gone to bed.  Sent all the gifts I bought for my niece and nephew as well as sister and her partner ot find mum retun with nothing for me, mum said she cried when she left there and she also cried when we were cooking.  I'll be glad when the new year kicks in and this will be put behind me.  My nan gave me a really thoughtful present a little book with 'Daily Strength' on the cover, she knows this year's not been easy and I think mum may have told her about the depression.  Will be reading a little of the book each day from now on, even though I'm not a religious person.   I've written something today something that I'm looking for in life, as I only want one thing, to find love. I want someone ...To take my breath away when they walk in a roomTo make my heart skip a beat with their smileWhose eyes are the first things I see when I wake upWho I can tell every secret toWho I can cry infront of without feeling embaressedWho will comfort me when I'm feeling lowTo share the thrills when I'm elatedWhose touch gives me goosebumpsWhose breath warms and tickles the back of my neckWho will stand by me through difficult timesTo hold my hand where ever we walkTo cuddle when infront of the TVWhose warm embrace makes me feel safeWhose kiss makes my knees tremble and is the last thing I feel every nightTo congratulate me on my triumphsTo console me when i failWhose passion will enlighten meWho will do their best to protect meWho will love me unconditionallyAnd more importantly someoneWho I will love with every part of my body and soul till the day I die and beyond.Is this to much to ask?