Just got back from a weekend away where I went to see a friend for his birthday and met up with a few other people that I see probably once a year, I divulged the past years events to them and they've all commented on how I seem to be a more 'rounded' and focused person and how they're al impressed with my achievements on physical appearance and weight loss and coming from these people to whom I have probably been the butt of a few jokes  (but not with out just cause at times, I might hasten to add) really means something. A whole weekend without meds and I had a few drinks. OK I was in good company but didn't feel down at all however feel drained now mentally, emotionally and physically, there were times over the weekend that I just wanted to shut out the world and be having a quiet drink with just my friend and talk about what I'd gone through, but in the middle of London that just doesn't happen, which now looking back on it was probably for the best as I'd have sunk into depression again.I hope you are all well and that you've had a reason to smile this weekend.