Haven't updated in awhile so figured I would...
I loved it up at Umass. My friend and I were talking about how I might possibly room with her. That would be really awesome- I also met some girls on the floor. They seem really nice. I am feeling like I really want to go this spring semester. I have a lot of friends there so I could easily make connections and make new friends. I'm still really scared but I just think I always am going to be so I have to take this step.
Still struggling with the ex. I have a video all set up that I took in which I talk about how I miss her (without pressure, blah blah blah) but to be honest I'm having trouble sending it. I don't know if I want to. It SUCKS, I don't know what is wrong with me. People are telling me to just move on but I don't know how to. I feel like there was never a clear ending.
 
I don't know, today is a crappy day and so is tomorrow. I have all three classes and I have to go to some stupid jazz concert. 
 
I want brighter days and I am trying to hold on until they come. Please please please let me learn how to be happy on my own because I will never love someone until I do.