I'm feeling kind of shitty right now. I feel like I'm still so stuck in the past. I have been trying to stay optimistic but there's a limit to that. I have kept telling myself positive reinforcing things, and I'm going to keep trying to. But it's really hard.
This really nice girl who I always sit with in Geography made a point in class and people were so catty and laughed at her. Another girl made her status about her saying "Shut the fuck up dumb bitch". This is worse than high school. I really hate this place and I want to be able to get out of here as soon as possible. But I can't rush when I'll be ready and that's so frustrating.
I have to go to fucking philosophy for two hours tonight, than a two hour seminar on the the ethics of research. I just want to be happy. I keep getting close and then falling backwards right off the wagon.
This really nice girl who I always sit with in Geography made a point in class and people were so catty and laughed at her. Another girl made her status about her saying "Shut the fuck up dumb bitch". This is worse than high school. I really hate this place and I want to be able to get out of here as soon as possible. But I can't rush when I'll be ready and that's so frustrating.
I have to go to fucking philosophy for two hours tonight, than a two hour seminar on the the ethics of research. I just want to be happy. I keep getting close and then falling backwards right off the wagon.
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Hey, don\'t let the OPP get to you. Then they win. If you like this girl, be her support and let the other go F themselves. Who really cares what they say. You are there to learn geography.
Also, if you need any help with the philosophy in research, let me know. I actually teach a class in that.
Me fricking OWWWWW! Ppl can be SO damn catty. I absolutely HATE bullies! They destroy so much in thier path.
I know about just wanting to be happy. Me too. But sometimes we just have to survive the things we cant change. My world is pretty upside down right now too, so hopefully thiings will get better for us both very soon!
Meee-oww!!!!! Childish and cruel behavior indeed!!!! Someone should tell \'Shut the fuck up dumb bitch\' that she would do well to take her own advice!!!!
Well, at least you know which people you DON\'T want to have anything to do with, right off the bat!!!!! That\'ll save you from wasting some time.
I\'m sorry you are not enjoying the college experience. I hope it grows on you, as time goes on.
Keeping a positive attitude is great advice for everyone!!!! But if things get so bad that you want to have a good cry, go ahead and do so!!!! As long as it\'s not a way of life, it can be very good for making life easier to bear!!!
As to your status line, boy! You\'ve got that right!!! And when things are REALLY bad, sometimes it\'s one minute at a time!!!!
But kudos to you for doing all the right things, even though you aren\'t feeling the best about your situation!!!! You seem very mature for your age. I\'m not surprised that you are finding the behavior of some of those around you to be immature and inappropriate!!!! (((((Hugs)))))
I never really liked the socializing parts of high school or college either. But I did like most of what I learned and I wish now that I would have finished uni. I hope you can take what works from this experience and leave the rest.
Steph is dead on! Do hang in and finish. I wish I had too!,
girls will be girls. There is never an age where girls/women can keep their mouths shut. It is like we are programmed to be rude and cruel to eachother. It shows how wonderful and special yuo are to truly be concerned and upset for this girl. Show her you are there for her and ignore the idiots cause they are everywhere. Dont beat yourself up for this. Take care
some people never mature past the 6th grade. take it with a grain of salt. ((HUGS))
oh dear hunny i was hoping that school would be great for you, hang in there hunny you will make it through this x