I'm feeling kind of shitty right now. I feel like I'm still so stuck in the past. I have been trying to stay optimistic but there's a limit to that. I have kept telling myself positive reinforcing things, and I'm going to keep trying to. But it's really hard.
This really nice girl who I always sit with in Geography made a point in class and people were so catty and laughed at her. Another girl made her status about her saying "Shut the fuck up dumb bitch". This is worse than high school. I really hate this place and I want to be able to get out of here as soon as possible. But I can't rush when I'll be ready and that's so frustrating.
I have to go to fucking philosophy for two hours tonight, than a two hour seminar on the the ethics of research. I just want to be happy. I keep getting close and then falling backwards right off the wagon.