Hey everyone! Haven't journaled in about a week, so I figured I would get everybody caught up on the happenings.
I've been trying to stay on the sanity bandwagon. It's hard and I had a meltdown two days ago, but I'm hanging on for dear life. I'm trying.
Last night was TERRIBLE, I literally got NO sleep and just tossed and turned. I kept replaying things I should not be replaying over and over in my head. So right now as I type this in the library I'm exhausted as all hell.
I'm hanging out with my friend in a half hour or so. We're going to head back to my house before our 4:30 class. She's the only real friend I've made so far except for this sweet girl in my geography class, but we haven't hung out yet. It's still not the same as my high school friends but she seems to be going through a similar time as me and I like her a lot, she's nice and I think we could be good friends.
What else...I got an A on my first History quiz. There are 30 kids in the class and 12 got A's, so I guess it's not all that impressive, but still, at least I wasn't one of the ones who didn't get an A. With the amount of time I spend working I sure as shit better be getting A's. I do nothing but work and go on the Internet. I'm trying to branch out.
Oh, and I met my soul sister on this site- Michelle (Undoubtedlybroken) is literally my twin in Colorado. We're both musicians, bisexual and animal lovers. We've been skyping every night and she's such an awesome friend, I always feel better knowing I have her to go to! The plane tickets to see each other would cost SIX HUNDRED DOLLARS (Please, I'M not even worth that much...), but the good news is train tickets only cost two hundred, so if we split the cost it wouldn't be too bad. Maybe sometime during winter break, or a little later, we'll have a visit planned. =)
I guess that's all for now-trying to take it a moment at a time. Don't wanna think too much or else I'll get depressed. Hope all is well with everyone! xo
I've been trying to stay on the sanity bandwagon. It's hard and I had a meltdown two days ago, but I'm hanging on for dear life. I'm trying.
Last night was TERRIBLE, I literally got NO sleep and just tossed and turned. I kept replaying things I should not be replaying over and over in my head. So right now as I type this in the library I'm exhausted as all hell.
I'm hanging out with my friend in a half hour or so. We're going to head back to my house before our 4:30 class. She's the only real friend I've made so far except for this sweet girl in my geography class, but we haven't hung out yet. It's still not the same as my high school friends but she seems to be going through a similar time as me and I like her a lot, she's nice and I think we could be good friends.
What else...I got an A on my first History quiz. There are 30 kids in the class and 12 got A's, so I guess it's not all that impressive, but still, at least I wasn't one of the ones who didn't get an A. With the amount of time I spend working I sure as shit better be getting A's. I do nothing but work and go on the Internet. I'm trying to branch out.
Oh, and I met my soul sister on this site- Michelle (Undoubtedlybroken) is literally my twin in Colorado. We're both musicians, bisexual and animal lovers. We've been skyping every night and she's such an awesome friend, I always feel better knowing I have her to go to! The plane tickets to see each other would cost SIX HUNDRED DOLLARS (Please, I'M not even worth that much...), but the good news is train tickets only cost two hundred, so if we split the cost it wouldn't be too bad. Maybe sometime during winter break, or a little later, we'll have a visit planned. =)
I guess that's all for now-trying to take it a moment at a time. Don't wanna think too much or else I'll get depressed. Hope all is well with everyone! xo
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One moment at a time! That\'s all we can do- Plus thinking is over-rated sometimes. LOL!! Oh and I will argue that you are priceless- reference to your comment ( $600- not even worth that much) So not true but I understood where you were coming from- I\'m glad you have found a connection with Michelle- I hope you will be able to meet soon- It\'s nice to have a go to person- Yes an A is very impressive not worried about the ratio- Enjoy that!!! So I think the one moment at a time is such a great step and I hope you can continue doing so- Yesterday is over. Today is what matters and tomorrow isn\'t here yet- That\'s how I see it. Best to You!!
Hey Gal! I was wondering when you woould journal again and it\'s wonderful to hear from you! I know it\'s harder to find time now that school has started though.
An A on yor first quiz! EXCELLENTE!
And making friends takes time but sounds like you are well on your way.
Now you have a sould sister AND a Granny in Colorado!
A train trip out would be and excellent adventure! You would see SO much of the USA that way!
Yes. Don\'t think to much! It\'s that durn THINKING that ets us oin trouble every time, No?
Like when I wrote my last journal!!!! Tx for the comment btw!
Im glad your msking some friends at college hun & welldone on the a! :-) things will gt beta with time.
congrats on the A hunny im sure you deservd it...and keep hanging in there u are totally worth it
Well done getting an A! it\'s really encouraging you\'re making friends, it doesn\'t matter how many you make, it\'s the dear ones you do find...you can count dear true friends on one hand...keep trying everyday...you are doing better than you believe you are...baby steps my darling xxxx (hugs)
Good for you on getting an A!!!! I used to kill myself in order to get all A\'s, too!!!!
Watch out on that no sleeping!!! It\'s not good for anyone but especially not good for Bipolars!!! If you need to get something to help you sleep, do so!!!
I think you\'re doing pretty well with getting to know people!!!! Friends aren\'t something you make instantly. It evolves, over time.
And it\'s perfectly lovely that you\'ve found someone you relate so well to and isn\'t it fun to cam!!!!!!!?????? It\'s really the next best thing to being there!!! And I hope you two DO manage to visit each other in \'real life\'!!!!!!
I hope everything else is going well, along with everything you\'ve mentioned here!!!! Wishing you well!!!! It\'s so nice to see you at least yellow!!!!! ((((((((Hugs))))))))
glad you\'re doing a little better :) these friends all sound super, both online and right there with you. agree lots with smilthruthpain--not how many, it\'s how dear. also the a is frickin awesome!! hope you can keep sane and healthy as possible, glad to hear from you again :)