Arghhblechhhickkkkkkk I went thru hell with my I-pod today taking it to the Apple store and trying to get it fixed. It still isn't working nd we're running out of options to try. We're not totally out of stuff yet though so I'm praying our last resources work. I don't know. I feel like a failure of an eating disordered person, if that makes any sense. I aet almost normally and I'm not even restricting, I'm just not eating during the day and eating during night. Ickkk it sucks. I'm really tired. I've been having these bad headaches laetly. I feel really tired and sluggish. And bored. Arggh. Life just seems so POINTLESS right now. I feel so useles and unloved. I'm just such a huge burden to everyone. I do nothing but suck suck suck energy out of everything. I wish I had something to look forward to because right now I'm a ship drifting at sea at night with no port in the distance.
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Firstly, and most importantly, omigod, unloved? I love you!!! Tons of other people on here love you! You are surrounded by love, you just have to let yourself feel it. And you aren\'t useless. I\'ll give you one reason, out of the several hundred reasons. You sing. Singing is an art. Ars gratia artis. Art for art\'s sake. Art is never useless. And so, we need artists, such as you, to give us the lovely art. If you feel like a failure at ED, do you know what that means? It means you are doing rocking awesome at kicking ED\'s butt, and he\'s scared so he\'s trying to make you feel bad. You WANT to lose ED\'s game. Because if you win... You die. I hope your ipod starts working again! I wish I could send Karlei over there to you! She\'s the ipod whisperer. I LOOOOOVE YOU!
Aww, Meg. I feel for ya, girl. During the summertime, I just sit on my lazy ass and basically do nothing. But when school starts back up, I\'m sure you\'ll have plenty of things to look forward to. Clubs, plays, friends, football games, parties!! It\'s going to be lots of FUN! So keep your head up high for the future. :)
Also, I know exactly how frustrating not having your iPod is. I basically cannot survive without mine. It\'s with me 24/7. I can only imagine not having it for a long period of time. I hope it gets fixed soon. Maybe in the meantime you\'ll have to do it old school and carry around a walkman. =P
OMG I\'ve been having killer headaches too. Maybe it has something to do with eating more. Idk, because I\'ve been eating more too and getting bad headaches.
You are not useless and unloved. You are very much loved on ds and I\'m sure your family loves you too, they just may not have a very good way of showing it.
FAilure as an Eating disordered person???!!!! That is total crap. That didn\'t come from you but from ED. I am so proud of you for eating better and you should be proud of yourself too! Please keep it up and look at it through the eyes of Meg who wants to thrive and enjoy life! Hugs hun, love you
look for the lighthouse babes....it will guide u...ill be ur lighthouse if need be....and i hear ya about the ipod thing....technology can be a huge pain in the ass sometimes...
I\'m sorry you feel so horrible. But you are loved and people do care about you. I hope you are feeling better soon!
Hun im sorry u feel so bad , but u my friend r not a bad person it this ED that does it too us..I reaLLY care about u and i hope u have a better day tomm, i\'m here if u need me,I hope u feel better soon, love u,u r dif not unloved we all love u here rember that
Look how loved you are. Everyone on here loves you. Look how many cared enough to comment. I\'m so sorry you\'re struggling. The more I\'m on here the more I realize I don\'t have advice, but just know I\'m here for you and praying!
You are NOT a burden or a waste or anything else you claim yourself to be! You are so wonderful and precious and a true blessing in our lives. I seriously admire you so much Meg and I wish that you could see yourself through the eyes of all of us who adore you. I can really relate to how you\'re feeling right now though, because I am having the same feelings myself right now. But deep down, I think we both know that those are the things that Ed wants us to believe about ourselves, and he\'s definitely able to lure us in more when we have idle time. Hang in there - hopefully things will get easier when school starts up. Love ya dear xx
sweetie! you are the compete opposite of who you say ad what you deserve! I heart you, ad I dot heart just aymody! YOu are extra specia i my eyes!