Arghhblechhhickkkkkkk I went thru hell with my I-pod today taking it to the Apple store and trying to get it fixed. It still isn't working nd we're running out of options to try. We're not totally out of stuff yet though so I'm praying our last resources work. I don't know. I feel like a failure of an eating disordered person, if that makes any sense. I aet almost normally and I'm not even restricting, I'm just not eating during the day and eating during night. Ickkk it sucks.  I'm really tired. I've been having these bad headaches laetly. I feel really tired and sluggish. And bored. Arggh. Life just seems so POINTLESS right now.  I feel so useles and unloved. I'm just such a huge burden to everyone. I do nothing but suck suck suck energy out of everything. I wish I had something to look forward to because right now I'm a ship drifting at sea at night with no port in the distance.