why hello baaaaaaabies! My sleeping pill is kicking in, so this journal entry will be fairly short. First of all, my friend called me just at the last mniute and harriedly explained that she had had a brain fart and thought she had called me, buthasnt. She knows how easily hurt I am what with ED and all, and she was practically in tears over her mistake. I assured her there were no hard feelings and insisted she not feel guilty, because come on, we all have brain farts. I have therapy tomorrow. Joy. NOT. I hate to admit this, but I'm feeling likwe I wanna starve again. :/ Love, Megan
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i hope you are sleeping peacefully now :) I am glad to hear about your friend! it sucks how easily the ed can screw with our minds and make us jump to conclusions. but i am so glad your friend called you! I just read your last journal too and YOU ROCK for being so blunt with that dr... so many times when someone has made a comment to me like \"how do you stay so skinny\" there is a part of me that just wants to say \"it\'s easy really.. you just starve all day and then if you give in and eat, just throw up...\" people say the stupidest things really.. but good for you for being honest! take care dear!
Hang in there. I am here for you. I totally understand the sleeping pill. Yikes.....god knows I have taken my share. If you need me I am here for you. HUGS!
Oh Megan, I hope you don\'t start to starve yourself again. I know how tempting it is, but we all know that with ED life is just full of misery and sadness. You are such a beautiful individual and have SOOO much to offer. Your singing abilities amaze me to no end, and I truly believe someday you\'ll make it big on Broadway. You\'re such a talented, smart, insightful girl, so why waste all of those wonderful qualities on stupid, back stabbing ED? In my mind, it\'s not worth it.
I know that therapy sucks sometimes, but hopefully you\'ll be able to express to your therapist about your desires to turn back to anorexia. Sometimes it\'s nice to just open up and be honest about things. For me, it feels refreshing and almost like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Good luck and I\'ll keep you in my thoughts. xoxo
Don\'t do it. I\'d say for you to have those feelings and thoughts is pretty normal, it\'s just what you do with them. Don\'t give up!
Oh! You just reminded me that I to renew my sleeping pills!
I\'m so glad it was just a mistake with your friend. That\'s kinda what I thought.