Well. I am quite confused as of now. I don't know whether to be excited for summer o sad that school's ending. There are certain classes that I really loved, with teachers that really had an impact on me, and as corny and overdramatic as it sounds, it makes me feel like crying to think of leaving them. Also, the people in my classes were fun, and I'll really miss them. I don't know, maybe I'm just being a big baby, but I can't help but feel sad. And I feel irrationally sad then irrationally happy. It's literally like my brain dumps out a whole bunch of seratonin, then forgets to let out any, then continues all over again. I swear, I'm so messed up. I'm also really tired. But then when I try to go to sleep, I'm restless. Wtf?!?! It's SO annoying. I'm uber exhausted and cranky, but I can't sleep. Aaargh. I also got a book, a documentary called "Thin". Anybody heard of it? It looks really intense. Kinda freaked to read it. Oh well. I'm tired, so I am probably going to go off and consume a sleeping pill in the hopes of forcing my whacked out body to shot the hell up and SLEEP. Zzzzzz... Love, Meg
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I looked through that book and I was going to get it, but I decided to wait for it to come on hbo. I watched it, it is very intense. It\'s probably better to read the book, less triggering.
You\'re not being a baby by being sad that school is ending. You are closing a chapter of your life. I cried the last day of sixth grade. I didn\'t want it to end. I had the best teachers and the best friends. All my friends were going to a different school for seventh grade because they lived in area then me. I still hold the memories and so will you.
Ah,? Honey, I dont recommend reading that book. I bought it thinking it was just going to chronicle experiences through anorexia, but I find myself looking up to the girls in it, idolizing them. I wouldnt read it unless you are really firm in your recovery. As for school ending. Its completely natural to be sad that its ending. This is coming from a psych major and all! Skinnygirl2525 hit the nail right on the head. You are closing a chapter of your life and its going to be really hard to let go of. You are going to need time to mourn. But once that period is over, you are going to start a whole new chapter fulll of new a fantastic memories, adventures, and accomplishments.