Hey all! First of. let me apologize for being absent for so long. I've been a little resistant to recovery and I knew that if I came on here, everybody would be supportive of my getting better and not feeding into my obsession, which, stupid me, is what I wanted. I was so close to looking up a pro-ana site. SO CLOSE. But I didn't thank god. I just walked away and tried to distract myself. I've been getting a little better day by day. I got some newsthat made me extremely happy-this summer, my mom said I could take my cousin to an amusement park and have her sleepover!!! I know it doesn't seem like much, but she came last year and it was so so so fun!!! And afterwards my mom said to me "never again!" because we were really wil and crazy. So I didn't think she'd get to come but my mom considered all the things in my life and decided to let her come. So. I also wanted to say thank you to a few specific people. They've hugged and or messaged me in the past few days and I haven't gotten back to them yet. SkinnyGirl- I lvoe the fact that I remind you of yourself. It's a huge self-esteem booster because I truly think you're great, and you're always so helpful!!!Actress- I feel so lucky to have somebody who is my age, loves theater, and knows what I'm gonig through! You're so thoughtful and sweet and I'm really thankful.Mirimouse- I'm so priviliged to be getting to know you. You're such a friendly, kind person and I look forward to finding out even more about you. Betty-What can I say? You're amazing, stupendous, spectacular, magnificant, and wonderful. Oh, and did I mention I lvoe everybody? ;) Love,Meg
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I think you\'re great too! The amusement park and sleepover sound fun! Which amusement park is it?I still love amusement parks. Last summer I was so excited to go to the water park at Six Flags and I was even more excited when we went to Disney. I totally freaked on one of the rides at Six Flags though. I was crying, that\'s how scary it was.
We all get resistant to recovery. Good for you for not giving in and going onto the pro ana sites. Seriously I just feel really sorry for those people. I\'ve gone on them in the past. It\'s actually kind of funny how nuts those people are.
btw, did you know I love theater too! I went to musical theater camp at a college before I had my girls. I have always wanted to be an actress or model. I\'m getting too old now I think, but I\'m still trying. I do have a baby face so I don\'t look 27, so there is still a chance I can do it if I don\'t give up.
your awesome!
SO glad your back! :)
I am amazed by your strength, and saddened by your struggles. I wouldnt wish this on anyone and it hurts me see this burden you at such a you age with so many dreams and ambitions. But I KNOW and have FAITH that you will kick but and ACHIEVE those DREAMS and AMBITONS!