well today I just rang up to get some advice about concelling and they will ring me back...This is the first step in a long line of steps to find me the real me..I know I am in there somewhere I just need lots of help to find me...I need to do this and want to not just for me but so I can learn how to axcept me for me...I am feeling scared and happy at the same time I hope I am boing the right thing...