Well I feel like I am going to lose 2 of my children.Why you ask?the fater of my children wants to take them to vic in the easter hoidays.I am scared he will not bring them back.It seems like every time I see them they don't want to be with me.I love them so much and I feel them sliping away from me.My eldest doughter just wants what I can't give her and the other doughter just wants a father and to be happy.I just don't know if I can give them any of this.All I want to do is hide all the time I don't want to go anywhere.I am not sleeping well I keep tossing and turning and I don't know why.I keep thinking that they would be better of without me.If I keep thinking like this then I will end up killing myself.I just want to feel safe and happy.The pain my dody is giving me really hurts and scares me and I just don't know what to do.I cry out and no one heres me I feel so alone.