Well this is the first time I'm journaling since I've been on this site for four months. I mostly haven't done this because I have been feeling pretty good and didn't see much of a need for it. I'm going to try this although I don't know if anyone will read it maybe it will be good for myself. I am starting to get really scared that I'm going into a major manic episode. The last four days I have been what I call" kicking ass and taking names" which means getting a lot accomplished. The past four times this has happened to me in the last two years I was initially very happy because I was getting more done before noon and I normally get done in a month. That's where I'm at today. Unfortunately each one of them was followed by a major manic episode. I thought my meds were working so good. This sucks.