Well, it is the last day of 2007. A very interesting year. I just read DogMom's journal entry for today and it was inspiring. It made me consider this year and now it's ending...I started a new career in that I had to get licensed for and that took a couple months so my start in January was just after my mother had cancer removed from her lung. It had been a stressful Christmas because we all wanted her to have it removed right away but she insisted on waiting until after the holidays so she could have one last nice Christmas. She recovered beautifully, did not need chemo, and is still doing well. In March, my father had to have quadruple bypass surgery, it turned into quintuple, his recovery didn't go well. He was in the hospital a long time. My brother came out to visit for Easter and visited Dad, they had a nice talk, see you in the morning, and then, that night, Dad coded and although had a DNR on file, was rescecitated. He was in a coma for about a week and a half. My brother stayed in town, I had my gall bladder removed. When Dad came out of the coma, he wasn't the same. He had been without oxygen for too long and the hardest few weeks were ahead of us trying to do what he wished but also hoping that he would return to his former self. He had moments of lucidity and I am so grateful to have had that time with him. After we had moved him to a Hospice facility, he was much more comfortable and the last conversation he had, my husband and I were there. He grabbed my husband's hand and he said "You'll take care of her, right?" and DH said "Of course I will, don't worry." and then he said "Now go" and I went over to hug him and I said "I love you" and he said "I love you the best!" And then a few days later, he passed. I miss him so much. Time has made the tears less frequent but I treasure my emotions because we cared so much about each other.His funeral was on May 11, day after my wedding anniversary, and I had fibroid removed on May 16th. That gave me 2 weeks to lie in bed and sleep and cry and take pain pills... but physically, I was really in pain!! Three months later, I got to start first cycle of IUI. Or four I guess, since I got my first AF on my birthday! Sept 30, and then the second on DH's bday Oct 26. We took November off and I found DS.What a tremendous comfort this sight has been for me. To not be alone in IF, thank you! It took tension off and kept me from telling everyone in the world what I was doing, and now, I am sitting in my first few days of BFP! The things I did differently, 1. kept quiet2. quit caffiene3. hypnosis4. was tremendously busy during my 2ww so I couldn't focus too much on it.5. prayed for and was prayed for by lovely ladies in DS.I am not sad to see 2007 go and  I welcome the adventure of 2008. It just has a successful feel to it! God Bless!

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Congrats on your BFP!!! You\'ve truly given so much of us hope that our time will come despite all of the ups and downs we need to endure getting there. I am so sorry to hear about your past year w/your mom\'s cancer and then your dads passing. I can\'t imagion the strain it had on you, especially while dealing with IF. I know 2008 will be great for you. Thank you for sharing your difficult year w/us and of course what worked for you this time around. I will keep that in mind when we move forward w/our next IVF cycle. Baby dust!
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God bless you and your baby blessing! I will pray for you and I envy your strength. You have been through a lot this year. I am sorry you lost your father. Know he is watching you and make it a great 2008.
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Yay, congrats on your BFP!