33 days to the appointment

 
33 days to see THE Migraine Doctor  A Neurologist.  I've waited 16 months so far. 
I'm feeling annoyed by the littliest things.  Being stuck in survival mode for too long is taking it's toll.  I'm tired of being unwell and seeing to the appointment coming up is making me so anxious.  Its like wanting to win the race but don't know if I have enough in me to get to the finish line without tripping. 
I'm worried that he won't do anything useful or different than what I've tried.  That it will all be a big let-down.  That he can't or won't help me.  That my last hope will be lost.