I dont understand myself, last night i was a wreck and ready to start talking about everything. This morning I woke up and wanted to delete this account and just move on. Was talking to my boyfriend on the phone just a few minutes ago. I cant tell him. It would hurt him at just the thought of me being hurt again. I am fine. I am stronger than this. If I waste my life talking about it, didnt the man who raped me win. I dont want him to run my life. I just want to forget about it. Is it possible to succesfully just move on and skip the whole process when i have to be the one people feel sorry for, the one who everyone is talking about and judging. I just want to hide, and get lost in the mix of things and be forgotten about. I dont want to have to go through this process. I want to just forget