Well thank u sooo much for your support i really appreciate it. Been trying to stay positive and cleaning out my room to refresh my mind. Im trying now to deal with whats going on without running away and ignoring it. Its hard but it seems to be working today i feel quite good for a change so i'm taking advantage of it. Me and my boyfriend just spent a really nice night together and have agreed to just stay in tommorrow and be with each other (as we always go out at the weekends). I feel a bit more positive and trying to tell the bad thoughts to **** off.anywho thanks again xxx