I haven't been on in a couple of days because I have had a horrible time with my fibro. It seems that holding my head up takes all of my strength. I made it to work every day but for two hours at a time. The when I get home my arms and hands are useless. I can't even do simple tasks like carry in my bag and pocketbook. It seems to betting worse. I make myself keep going though. Thank God no migraines. Just the tiredness and numbness right now. I do real good for about a month and then like a lightening bolt I hits and worse than before. I am only 34 I should not feel this way. I keep repeating myself, My Girls, My Girls, My Girls. They need me. I feel real bad that some days they have to help me. But I am very very very Lucky, they deal with it like angels with patience. And as for Juan I know he gets frustrated but he hangs in there. The arguments aren't as bad now as I have showed him the info in spanish so that he can understand better. But he still at times thinks that I am being lazy. Not saying that I don't take care of all my responsibilities at home he just doesn't like to see me miss work. Today he is taking me to test drive a new car. He says I deserve it. We both have noone else so we look out for each other. Thinking of all of this makes me cry. I have been blessed by God to have him and my two wonderful girls. I wish all of you could hear my whole story and one day I might get the courage to tell it all. Thank you so much for your warm messages and all the hugs.
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Most men get frustrated when someone they care about is ill. It\'s a man thing. They want to help us, but don\'t know how. But don\'t take it personally. He\'s still showing you he cares. As for your girls, they may not understand everything, but I\'m sure they don\'t mind when mommy just can\'t some days. Don\'t be so hard on yourself. I\'ve had fibro about 12 years. I understand what you\'re going through. It gets tough, but hang in there. And above all...give your worries to God. Take care
Gwen
Sorry you have been having such a rough time!!! Good luck with the new car!! We need something diff. but for the time being OLD NELLY has to do! Ha!!
Have a good Monday and stay warm!!
Hugs,
Gabby