I just need help.  I don't know what to do....I feel trapped in a relationship that is completely one-sided. I feel like I've shown my love in every way I know how, but he will not do it. I have had a terrible migraine for the entirety of this week, and still John wanted me to go to the Caps game. Of course, I went. The first half wasn't bad, but by the third period I wanted to scream! I asked if we could leave during the 5 minute pause when there was 1:30 or so left on the clock. We were clearly losing. He got sooooo mad at me....and as soon as we were on the platform to catch the train, he suddenly cared that I was nearly in tears. I love him, but I wish he loved me. He says he does but never shows it.  Yesterday, a girl from my office got flowers from her boyfriend for their anniversary, and I was jealous! I can't believe I was actually jealous! But still, we've been together for over a year, celebrating our anniversary in January, and I didn't get flowers or anything! In fact, he has NEVER gotten me flowers for any reason... He bought me a teddy bear the week before our anniversary, and apparently that was my anniversary gift. It would have been more effective if he gave it to me ON our anniversary. On the actual day of our anniversary, he didn't plan ANYTHING. He asked me towards the end of the day if perhaps I wanted to get dinner in Rio.... We went to the Macaroni Grill....which was good. I like that place, but I was so upset that he didn't think about ANYTHING before our anniversary. My birthday was back in September......he had NOTHING for me on my birthday. It was bad enough that I had to spend it at someone's baby shower that I didn't even like....His parents had a present for me....but not him...he actually, has not gotten me anything to the day for my birthday...The one person who's supposed to make it special didn't do anything.....then we got back from the thing which was 6 or so hours from home, and I had to wait for him to watch football before we could do anything else! Then we went shopping for someone else. What a birthday... I know that he doesn't care about his birthday, but birthday in general, holidays, ex are very important to me! I think that if those things are very important to one person that the other should at least make some kind of effort! Am I wrong here? Or am I right, but just not worth being loved. I'm just asking for a litle help, or maybe a miracle is what I need.....