OK, so I'm trying to be proactive and get out of the house a bit more...get my mind off of things. Last night I went to Pizza Hut with my friend Jamie and then we watched a movie at my place. Tonight I went out with my friend Stephanie and we got food (and I got a daquiri) and saw Enchanted (great movie). Tomorrow I'm supposed to hang out with my friend Brian....I still have a lot on my mind and not a lot of enegry, but I figure that by going out it should help improve my mood....and it does....until I get home...Then the thoughts flood my mind and I realize how tired  I am.....and blah blah blah...Well, in other news: I have to go back in for more testing. I don't have parathyriod cancer....great! So what do I have?! I've been sick for 4 years and now I have really bad heart palpatations...they hurt... = ( ....I would really just like an answer. All they know is that I had two blood tests with high calcium readings...I'm thinking parathyroid tumor (when one has high blood calcium 85-90% of the time it's due to parathyroid disease...most cases there is a tumor....less than 1% of those cases are cancer) even though the level was normal. I read up on it and it is very possible. It would explain why I've lost 20lbs and my lack of enegry concintration, and the palpitations. Bah...I'm not a doctor though so I will let them diognose me..I just wish my doc would let me see a specialist....she wouldn't give me the referal! She just said "Oh, come back in..." WHAT?! I'm mad...I'll get in from her in person then....So anywho, that's the update. Hope everyone's doing well. Graduation for me in two weeks! Yay....