So Shawn contacted my ex roomie (Daniel)--his best friend--and I got my answers...Well, Shawn didn't leave me for his ex, he left me for the baby that isn't his. He's attached to the baby and when the holidays hit he didn't talk to anyone or cry, he simply ran away. He's not with the ex, but he's living with her to take care of the baby because she won't, and trust me, I've met her, she can't even take care of herself...Amy (Shawn's ex) told Shawn he would never see the baby again whilst he was with me. Daniel and I both think there is some way that Shawn could go for custody of the baby even though it isn't his. If Shawn really loves me and still wants to take care of the baby, we can make it work. Amy is abusive and psychotic. We have more than enough evidence aganist her to put her away and/or to take the baby from her. I know it sounds crazy, but I love him enough that I would help him raise a child that has nothing to do with either one of us. How did I end up falling in love with him? I can't explain it, but I know it when I feel it. I don't know why I want to be with him. What is the matter with me?Now I need to find a specialist for more testing because my levels have been all over the place....and I'm alone...yay...