Checking in
It's been a while, longer than usual.
Biggest situation was a restraining order due to increased stalking by my exbf. It seemed no matter what I or our mutual friends said he wouldn't let up. Got a free attorney through an aquaintance the day I was planning to file, which was a miracle. Go back to court to find out how long it will remain in place. He was there and agreed to stay away. The stalking got so bad even though he never came to my home. Went through my diaries to list all the incidences and got to tell them to the lawyer who typed them up in the document, quite a hard situation. God. I am just grateful he is finally leaving me alone. First I am sad I "hear" from people he is no longer going to our mutual meetings I've been staying away from since the stalking began 3 months ago. It's like I still have this misshapen sense of responsibility when my friend M reminds me it is HIS behavior that lead to this situation and I never asked for him to stay away from the meeting location, it's just that I suppose now he wants to avoid arrest. I just wanted him to leave me alone and I need to separate myself from the drama of well meaning people who want to judge or hate him and who want to share with me his wherabouts or lack thereof. It's been an obsessive enough situation.
Went online a bit to search out jobs though the process of updating resume and filling out application is far behind. I put in one application lately which is far too little.
Feeling stifled at home with dad's unpleasantness and mom's controlling. Also my sis's family is going through a lot of unpleasant stuff and there are addiction and untreated al anon issues going on. Grateful for my sobriety and my al anon program.
Did quite a bit of decluttering and organizing closet, continuing with daily meditation and yoga and picked up some chi gong practices from a free class I took.
Finished the Boundaries class and starting therapy with the teacher, which I think is a good move for me. Starting a Safe People class which is good, same authors Townsend and Cloud.
Doing a drop in support group for abused women. One of them was in the courts same time as me for restraining order, I'm glad we could support eachother.
Goal to not date for a year, and told therapist I'd like to get a job and move out of my parents house - moving is the hardest challenge I suppose, we're so enmeshed I suppose and there is some codependency stuff.
Trying to go to daily meetings and some church and doing my dog walks. Not going to enough MA or reaching out like I need to, not excersising enough. I am taking in a lot of movies and eating too much probably.
Biggest situation was a restraining order due to increased stalking by my exbf. It seemed no matter what I or our mutual friends said he wouldn't let up. Got a free attorney through an aquaintance the day I was planning to file, which was a miracle. Go back to court to find out how long it will remain in place. He was there and agreed to stay away. The stalking got so bad even though he never came to my home. Went through my diaries to list all the incidences and got to tell them to the lawyer who typed them up in the document, quite a hard situation. God. I am just grateful he is finally leaving me alone. First I am sad I "hear" from people he is no longer going to our mutual meetings I've been staying away from since the stalking began 3 months ago. It's like I still have this misshapen sense of responsibility when my friend M reminds me it is HIS behavior that lead to this situation and I never asked for him to stay away from the meeting location, it's just that I suppose now he wants to avoid arrest. I just wanted him to leave me alone and I need to separate myself from the drama of well meaning people who want to judge or hate him and who want to share with me his wherabouts or lack thereof. It's been an obsessive enough situation.
Went online a bit to search out jobs though the process of updating resume and filling out application is far behind. I put in one application lately which is far too little.
Feeling stifled at home with dad's unpleasantness and mom's controlling. Also my sis's family is going through a lot of unpleasant stuff and there are addiction and untreated al anon issues going on. Grateful for my sobriety and my al anon program.
Did quite a bit of decluttering and organizing closet, continuing with daily meditation and yoga and picked up some chi gong practices from a free class I took.
Finished the Boundaries class and starting therapy with the teacher, which I think is a good move for me. Starting a Safe People class which is good, same authors Townsend and Cloud.
Doing a drop in support group for abused women. One of them was in the courts same time as me for restraining order, I'm glad we could support eachother.
Goal to not date for a year, and told therapist I'd like to get a job and move out of my parents house - moving is the hardest challenge I suppose, we're so enmeshed I suppose and there is some codependency stuff.
Trying to go to daily meetings and some church and doing my dog walks. Not going to enough MA or reaching out like I need to, not excersising enough. I am taking in a lot of movies and eating too much probably.
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