Hey

It's been too long.
Grateful I did some inventory re my bf.  I have not been nice to him, and it occured to me, oh, I need to inventory this resentment.  I hadn't realized my irritation had become a resentment.  I admitted to him I've been angry.  I think our spiritual walks are different enough to be causing me some suffering.  As much as he claims he has been walking with God a long time, I feel more convicted than he seems to be about some clearly wrong things happening with us.  So yeah I'm a little alarmed.  I'm grateful  to have my dear friend G who talked with me about it today, to be able to talk openly about stuff.  Now I get to ask God to  remove all  that stuff and start new, and I don't know what's going to happen.
I got a car.  It's been 5 long months without one after 3 months of a borrowed one.  I got it ALL on my own, no borrowing of money (well I borrowed from mom for Insurance but I'm paying her back in a few days).  Now I have a little economic struggles and a real need to focus on getting myself together as I feel this relationship and it's problems for me are starting to not build me up if I let it.  G encouraged me to keep  going to church with my BF and to just you know not give in to the stuff that I have been.