Feelings
Well the feelings came today after much numbness and resentment.
I read a text T sent last night hope you're ok be happy
I'm like I asked him to leave me alone but what do I expect he has no boundaries. He even told me in the recent past when I set a boundary that he's never had a girlfriend with boundaries.
I'm upset because I let myself be taken advantage of and used I feel. It hurts to have feelings for someone that does not respect mine. It's over. I hope to avoid seeing him at meetings. Crying today.
Mom is trying to force solutions with my car situation. I just feel very stressed about her doing that. I told her I like to make my own decisions. She wanted to have a dialog about it. I did call my phone plan to reduce my texts since most were with T and his son, I never hear from his son anyway. So with T yeah it got to the point where he only contacted me when he wanted/needed something, not a good feeling. So overall it is good to be out it sort of hurts when I take personally his treatment of me. I hope to avoid getting caught up in trying to explain or getting him to stop any behavior in any way.
I rest and slept a lot last night.
I walk to library and do some laundry. I will go to a meeting. I did yoga and walked the dog, and I wore a little makeup as much as I didn't want to. I let the tears come, finally. This is good.
Oh and I called a car salesman friend who is offering to help me but I think he likes me so I have to be careful about that, he even offered a ride to our meeting which sounds nice but I need to take care not to mislead another man when I am in need of friendship.
Having friends to talk to about this and friends in general would not make this so hard to go through.
I read a text T sent last night hope you're ok be happy
I'm like I asked him to leave me alone but what do I expect he has no boundaries. He even told me in the recent past when I set a boundary that he's never had a girlfriend with boundaries.
I'm upset because I let myself be taken advantage of and used I feel. It hurts to have feelings for someone that does not respect mine. It's over. I hope to avoid seeing him at meetings. Crying today.
Mom is trying to force solutions with my car situation. I just feel very stressed about her doing that. I told her I like to make my own decisions. She wanted to have a dialog about it. I did call my phone plan to reduce my texts since most were with T and his son, I never hear from his son anyway. So with T yeah it got to the point where he only contacted me when he wanted/needed something, not a good feeling. So overall it is good to be out it sort of hurts when I take personally his treatment of me. I hope to avoid getting caught up in trying to explain or getting him to stop any behavior in any way.
I rest and slept a lot last night.
I walk to library and do some laundry. I will go to a meeting. I did yoga and walked the dog, and I wore a little makeup as much as I didn't want to. I let the tears come, finally. This is good.
Oh and I called a car salesman friend who is offering to help me but I think he likes me so I have to be careful about that, he even offered a ride to our meeting which sounds nice but I need to take care not to mislead another man when I am in need of friendship.
Having friends to talk to about this and friends in general would not make this so hard to go through.
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