I've been absent for a while.  I was on vacation from my regular job for a week and so it was not convenient for me to log in.  I got sick with a cold Sunday and took time off work this week - I'm feeling much better now. For New Years day I went down and used hot springs and got a lovely manipedicure.  It felt good to treat myself.  I want to go again! A guy asked me to the movies.  By the time he called a few days later, he called once and left a msg, called a 2nd time and left a msg and asked me to return his call.  I left a msg, and that was 8pm I turned my phone off - by 8:30am I turned my phone back on and there were 4 msgs!  I was overwhelmed and told him so.  I didn't necessarily want to go - I never thought of him that way, though he seems fine - he has relapsed recently and it's not suggested to date or get into relationships with little sobriety.  Anyway he never called again.  I said no to making plans that weekend, I was busy and needed a breather.  He said maybe the next weekend (this one)   I saw him at a meeting that weekend and we had a nice greeting.  I seem to see this pattern of thinking certain guys are into me just to soon have them change their mind and reject me.  I trust God. I apologized for being short with him, I was like what is that all about, calling at 10pm and then before 8:30 in the AM?  I did not handle that well.  Saying "yes" to the movie without thinking about it and being taken off guard, I needed to think about it and not  get this whole ball set in motion.  Saying yes to begin with was people pleasing and not taking the time to think about it - it totally took me by surprize. After the hot springs day spa yoga class on New Years day on the lawn, I'm getting up early and doing yoga on a beach towel on the lawn - it's awesome!  I'm so glad.  It's something I've neglected and it feels so good to do it regularly. I put up some shelves so my room is a little more organized.  Baby steps!