I was able to fix car myself - it was a loose hose, which I realized after it had been towed to the mechanics.  He was gone for the weekend so I opened the hood after I realized what it probably was.  The tow truck driver was really nice and talking about Christianity.  I am sort of bugged now my coworker wants to use our employee to make sure the problem is secured - I don't feel comfortable, but feel unable to say "no."  The guy is fixing it now.  I am reading that Steve Harvey's "Act like a lady, think like a man" about letting guys do things for you.  I am not good at that in many ways, learned from mom, so I'm trying to stretch myself for practice. I feel sort of bugged this girl told me this guy M liked me about a month ago and asked me to talk to him.  I almost wish she hadn't because now I feel rejected.  He'd asked her for my # and now that we're talking I don't think he likes me.  Oh well.  Ask God to replace my ego with humility. So J, the guy who I took to the concert, I realized around that time his friend liked me.  I've avoided him for a few weeks.  So I finally saw his friend T last night and he asked me if I want to go to church with he and J, and said it's an "open invitation".  I am trying to avoid J, I guess I really put myself out there and feel sort of hurt.  I told T I'd keep it in mind.  He asked if I had a cell #.  M was nearby.  I kind of forgot to give him mine after I took his, I got distracted.  So my mind is sort of racing a little, like what's this all about?  Then my 95 year old friend said he's trying to fix me up with this guy in AA and I felt totally self conscious.  I told my friend the guy has a girlfriend - he said it's not serious.  I look up to this guy, actually I used to have a little crush on him, and I'm totally out of his league, as far as many areas go - looks, fitness, taking care of himself, not to mention I heard he's a millionaire - yes that is attractive only when the person is nice, but I'm like, why can't my friend just let me be?  So I am in the process of redefining myself with men I suppose.  I am fine single!  I can't really imagine getting married.  I'm used to my independence. At my home MA I shared how I used to be an exotic dancer.  That is really hard to admit.  The topic was something that has really affected you, and one is being a marijuana addict, and another is that, both things I tend to keep secret.