I did some nice yoga last night that makes a huge difference in my attitude and well being.  I have become quite sore from not doing this regularly, and from neglecting my gym jacuzzi routine. I am looking for work a bit here and there.  I am enjoying meetings.  I am in the middle of an inventory on my sis as directed from my new Al Anon sponsor.  I decluttered some papers last night and found some extremely touching cards from my sis in the past, and it is hard to have this sense of grief and loss since she is no longer reaching out.  God's will. I am having recurring dreams of trying to escape from past abusive boyfriends, as I have a handful of them, especially one in particular is the most prominent.  When I was with him I was quite insane in the situation. I am very interested in finding someone to date at this point and sort of have my mind on someone J who gave me some attention I wasn't quite ready for, and waiting to reciprocate.  I know the busier I get with taking care of me the less needy I am.