Wow I'm surprized how down I am and cannot quite put my finger on it. Heard of a bear that has been coming down to our community from the mountains nearby and was shot by a cop, and how sad I feel about it. Went to a concert last night that must brought up some discomfort.  A girl asked me to join her group and I declined.  I keep to myself too much.  My dear oldtimer AA friend wants to talk to me about it, I think he recognizes my shyness. Today at the womens AA meeting the topic was compulsive relationships and loneliness, and I was grateful to hear others experience about this a share on it. I've recently been going to different AA meetings where I used to go with my exbf, since he's not there I feel safe and I'm saving gas $. My sponsor doesn't reply to my emails anymore and I need to bring it up with her.  I haven't been able to rech her by phone a while.  That must not help with things. The temp agency called me to start another part time position next week.  I'm a little anxious. I'm kind of alarmed how down I am feeling and how I am coping with it isn't very healthy.  Coming on here and reaching out is helpful.